My Human Design experiment – the story
Each of us comes to Discovering Human Design (you might say IT found YOU) in a unique way. Often at a time when we really need something to give us an energetic nudge. Here’s my story of how Human Design found me.
I don’t actually remember the very first conversation I had about it. It might have been one of those passing posts on social media – but there something that landed in the way I needed to hear it. “Find the way you’re uniquely designed to do business.” That’s what I remember. This is why I often say IT found ME – because I wasn’t searching for something specific, at the time.
It was early 2022. I started asking colleagues and coaches in my sphere of influence if they were familiar with it. Many of them were not, but Helena Holrick (a significant Manifesting Generator of influence in my life) was one such person who knew more. Helena also knew someone who could help me make more sense of what it meant for me. She introduced her colleague, who offered me a complimentary session to shed some light on what it all meant. Of course I took her up on it.
When you first find out about Human Design, you will either:
- Feel its resonance, feel like you already know it without understanding how, and recognise its place in your life.
- Be fascinated by it, and want to disappear off down the rabbit-hole, Alice-In-Wonderland style… or perhaps…
- Find yourself alienated by the terminology and apparent complexity of it – which might scare you off completely. (I’m hoping that’s not you – help is here, if it is!)
In case you wondered… I was the middle of those 3.
My first Human Design reading was on February 14th 2022 and it really helped me understand more about myself.
About why exactly I had always felt as though I had more to give.
To recognise why I moved in the world in such a continuously plate-spinning kind of way.
Helping me familiarise myself with my stop-start-change-direction-and-then-again kind of nature.
Even in that moment, it felt like it was going to be a BIG distraction.
I’d been working on building my coaching business for the previous year, since pivoting in 2020. Having worked with a few clients I felt as though I really hadn’t found anything that helped me stand out from the crowd.
Recognising that some of that ‘not good enough’ energy is actually part of my story, identifying with a need to prove myself (I have a completely open Will/Ego centre (known as Resource in Quantum Human Design*), and that’s a common theme there. Yet I couldn’t stop thinking ‘what if this is going to help?’
It was May of that year when my lovely new hubster Bruce (having only been married 6 months at this time) came down with Covid for the 2nd time and took himself off into isolation, to prevent us all getting unwell.
Ugh – boredom struck fast, especially in the evenings.
Then it came to me.
I could make much better use of this time by reading all those guides and reports I had downloaded in recent weeks – the information I had tried not to get distracted by.
Phoebe Kuhn was the author of the material I had been paying the most attention to at that time. She spoke about ‘deconditioning’ as if I was supposed to truly understand what that meant. At the time it still felt like part of a foreign language I was yet to learn.
That was how I found my way to Dr. Karen Curry Parker’s work.
Dr. Karen is my international mentor, and her work in the world is exceptional, beautiful, powerful, magical, transformative. The more I soaked up her innate wisdom – gained over almost 3 decades, being one of the world’s first certified life coaches, studying under and working alongside Ra Uru Hu. She has vast experience in this industry – the more I felt myself bring drawn to learn. There was something about her that felt good to me.
I signed up for her free guide to deconditioning because after all, that was the initial stumbling block for me. Feeling called to understand it better. From information studied so far, I saw that deconditioning was the key to truly becoming my aligned, authentic self. Reasoning that if I could ‘crack’ that (hah! If you know anything about this topic, you’ll know that is a life-long journey in itself) I would be making good tracks to my innate sense of ‘being’.
As a Manifesting Generator (Time Bender in Quantum Human Design*), I’m always – and you’ll be the same, if that’s you – looking for the shortcuts, the fastest way to get to the end result.
Often I need to backtrack and revisit my steps to work out why that didn’t pay off. That’s completely right for the way in which we move through the world.
So it makes total sense to me that I was wanting to ‘get to the end’ of the icky part and get to the good stuff.
In signing up for her free class, I was added to the mailing list. Now it gets really good!
Before long I found myself receiving a special offer. One that would give me the opportunity to certify as a Quantum Human Design™* specialist.
THIS spoke to my soul! I truly felt myself being called – and that’s the only way I’ve ever been able to describe it.
Inspired to go further with this, I wanted/needed to feel as though I would do the job ‘properly’. I say properly, because I know many brilliant human design readers who haven’t had this kind of training, but they are absolutely smashing it because of their intuitive gifts and experience – and yes, their self-belief. For me, I felt this deep desire to play this one by the book.
The only snag? I had recently signed up to a couple of other ‘I need to do this’ courses, one as a certified crystal healer, one as a reiki healer – and there was a big part of me asking the question ‘isn’t this just the next shiny thing?’. Another common theme for us Mani-Gens.
When I spoke with Bruce later that week, he was of a similar opinion. Was this just the next in a long line of ‘need-to-have’ trainings to fill some kind of need I didn’t quite understand? His belief in me was that I’m already so gifted I could just get on with building my business instead of adding to my ever-growing list of certificates. A very fair observation.
As a life-long learner (and a 1/3 profile in Human Design, which will make so much sense to you, if you know about those) I have a deep passion for expanding my knowledge and skillset in everything I do.
Yet I still couldn’t switch off from this feeling that it was meant for me.
It’s my thing! I feel like I’ve found my thing!!! (This was my sacral response).
That ‘not standing out from the crowd’ that I mentioned earlier? It felt as though this would give me the edge. And it wasn’t just that I wanted the edge – I felt called.
It excited me in a way I couldn’t describe. I pictured how it would be utilised to help the women I had started guiding, help them understand more about themselves, how they are who they are, and why they do things in their unique way. What that means for them. Giving them beautiful new insights they might not otherwise find – or might take a really long time to do so, time they felt they were running out of. (I was envisioning the outcome).
I knew it was right – so when the final email came that said ‘only 24 hours to get the special offer’ (you know the ones) – I clicked ‘add to cart’. This was me responding – and then I informed my husband. He trusts my judgement anyway so it wasn’t an issue. This was the new way forward, I was learning a powerful new tool and it wasn’t just for my business. I didn’t even realise at this point how many transformative, personal changes there were to come.
Once I began my training, I learned something extremely significant about this experience.
In the foundational stages of understanding Quantum Human Design, we learned about the differences in each energy type, their strategy and authority, and their profile lines.
For a Manifesting Generator (remember, that’s Time Bender in Quantum Human Design) the full strategy is:
Wait, Respond, Envision, Inform.
Wait for the right timing (a key piece of the puzzle, and the one that presents many challenges for an energy type who is always busy busy on-the-go).
Respond – to an opportunity, a sign from the universe, an aligned conversation. You notice how it makes you feel (feeling lit up, energised, excited, that fizzy feeling inside you can’t describe, or in other cases a full body NOPE) which is your sacral response. Then, if it’s a yes, something comes along giving you the go-ahead to take the next step.
Then you envision – contemplate how this will fit into your already busy activities/life plan/business. Whatever it is you are experiencing this with.
You inform – let those around you know – in particular those who will be impacted by your decision/choice/action.
After that, you take action. Do the thing, sign up for the class, go on the trip.
With those key components in place, you are good to go in an aligned way, as a Time Bender/Manifesting Generator.
At the time of writing this, I’m coming up to the end of the third year in my experiment. Add that to the personal transformation journey I’ve been on since 2014, and you’ve got yourself heaps of energy focused towards positive change.
I hope you’ve enjoyed reading about my journey, I’d love to hear more from you.
Perhaps you’re curious to know how this can be integrated into the way you’re currently doing things? Why not check out the 60 page reports available from my online store? There’s heaps to be discovered from those alone.
See you soon.
*Quantum Human Design™ is the high frequency language crafted by Dr. Karen and her team in a laboratory. It’s been crafted to speak directly to your potential.