Your power is immense. The world needs it. And yet… you dilute it by distracting yourself.
That was the ‘cosmic download’ I received this week.
I say beautiful… but the truth is, no one really wants to hear that they might be the reason progress isn’t happening. And yet, when it landed, it felt like confirmation too.
These are real-life reflections from a very much Manifesting Generator.
I can see exactly where I’m at. I can see what’s happening. And still… I’m not entirely sure what to do about it. And oh my goodness, it’s frustrating. Right?
Because here’s the thing – we often do know when we’re holding ourselves back. But we get so caught up in the fact that we’re stuck, that we end up digging ourselves deeper into it.
It’s as if paying attention to the stuckness… makes us more stuck.
Well, screw that for a game of soldiers. I’m done with being stuck. You too?
Sometimes – and this is the part I’m really sitting with right now – what looks like stuckness is actually the Universe preparing you.
Preparing you for a kind of forward movement you didn’t quite expect. Rocket fuel. Elastic band energy. And I can feel it.
I know exactly where my own elastic-band behaviour is coming from. Yes, some of it is fear.
But in this instance, I’m certain it’s something deeper. My Chiron return. It’s approaching fast, and if I’m honest, I’ve been dancing around it for a while now. (I turned 50 last year.)
If you’re not familiar with Chiron, it’s often referred to as The Wounded Healer. In Greek mythology, Chiron was a wise teacher and physician. After being accidentally wounded by a poisoned arrow, he couldn’t heal himself. Despite all his knowledge, all his skill… his own suffering remained. A paradox.
He could heal everyone else, but not himself.
In your Human Design chart, Chiron sometimes shows between Saturn and Uranus.
On this example (my chart, in case you’re curious), it’s at the bottom – see where I’ve circled it.
Not all charts show it clearly, but if you’ve ever noticed a little “K” symbol, that’s it. Go here to grab your copy.
Energetically, it represents the work you’re here to move through so that your unique gifts can actually be expressed. And this tends to come into focus somewhere between the ages of 49 and 51.
So if something feels like it’s looping… something you keep revisiting, circling, not quite resolving… This might be why. And yes. It can feel incredibly frustrating.
Because the real cost of holding yourself back isn’t just the delay. It’s the feeling of always being on the edge of something… and never quite arriving. It’s the energy it takes to hold onto something that’s actually ready to be released. That kind of holding? It’s exhausting. Mentally. Emotionally. Energetically. And more often than not… your purpose is sitting just behind it. Waiting.
I can feel that in myself right now.
And if I’m really honest, the message I keep getting is: “Can you just get on with it now, please?” Which is both slightly confronting… and entirely accurate. Because at some point, awareness has to become action. And maybe that’s where I am.
And if you’re reading this thinking “we, that’s uncomfortably accurate”… this is exactly the kind of thing we dive into inside a Purpose Session. You can find out more here.