2024 marks 10 years of my personal development journey. I was shocked and surprised to realise this. Looking back, I spent a lot of time alone, working on my previous business. A heap of negative stories playing on a loop in my head! I spent years denying my true self!
I was seeking release with no idea what it looked like, then, one day, Audible appeared. Now I could listen to something other than my monkey mind while crafting beautiful pieces of stationery (my previous business). I could see a chance of feeling more personally fulfilled in this way.
I began with ‘Sane New World’ by Ruby Wax – I could listen to her all day!
The fact filled, scientific way she shared what was happening inside my own mind at that point was quite profound to me.
To understand it might just be possible to ‘rewire’ the thought patterns in my brain and be more positive was exactly what I needed to hear. This isn’t a blog about mental health, but I’ve certainly had my fair share of challenges in that department over the years. Check out my real life rollercoaster story here to find out more. A lot of my personal discoveries happened when I uncovered the sheer mental weight I’d been ferrying around with me.
It was the knowledge that I had a chance to change the way I had been thinking that opened doors for me. After years of dealing with a lot of emotional ‘stuff’ in my personal life, I began to realise that I had a choice in this. How I perceived that ‘stuff’ made all the difference to how I moved through it – and out the other side.
If I was really honest with myself, I’d found a way to do this my whole entire life. Now it felt like a ‘real’ thing to focus on. A clearer path ahead of me, maybe even learn something that might help others. Brilliant!
As it turns out – this was just the beginning of my journey back to self!
This is a process known as deconditioning – changing the thought patterns, choices or behaviours that don’t serve you. Perhaps they’re not even yours to begin with. Start by choosing something more positive focused, creating a new connection between the neurons that fire in your brain. This results in a different experience that can change your outlook, especially when done habitually over time.
When it comes to your own conditioning patterns, you can use your Huma Design chart to make sense of so many of these. In understanding how you’re designed to experience your life path and the purpose you are here to fulfil. knowing the way you are designed to ‘be’ in the world, your eyes open to what else is possible.
During a Human Design session there are moments that resonate so deeply, recognising truths about your experience. In other cases maybe they don’t feel so familiar.
This is where having a guide to follow, in the form of your Quantum Human Design™ chart will really help you to see more clearly. You can begin to explore the patterns you’ve been playing out on repeat – they’re often nothing to do with you.
You’ll start to notice some of the ways you’ve adopted over the years. See the habits you’ve formed, the belief systems you’ve adopted which are, in fact what you’ve been brought up with. Not to say you don’t respect these, but now you’re in a place where you get to choose – differently if you wish.
I’ll ask again now – are you denying your true self?
Maybe there are stories you have told yourself for many years. Stories such as “I’ll never amount to anything”, “I should just get a proper job”, “Putting myself first is selfish”. These and so many others like them. As you begin to uncover the truth of your own personal story, you’re able to see none of this supports you going forwards. In actual fact, they’re just holding you back.
My most recent discovery just as an example was seeing that the negative way I viewed some difficult conversations when I was younger, was really weighing me down. It came to me in an intuitive download. If I could just release, forgive and move forwards from that, there might just be so much more for me to experience.
A perfect discovery to make the day before a Full Moon!
I could list here many examples of ‘A-HA!’ moments that have happened for me over time. I share them as they arise on my socials – one of the things I’ve learned to be true for me, is that I’m here to help others learn and grow by sharing my experiences (it’s in my chart!).
If any of what I’ve shared here has you feeling ready. Like you’re ready to go on this journey in a thorough, full-bodied, empowering way, then let’s talk. Understanding how to UNLEARN all of the stuff that doesn’t belong. And then you too can start to step into your TRUE self. That’s when it gets REALLY good!
Love to talk with you more about this – book a Curiosity call with me and let’s dig deeper.